and so, the end of the much dreaded promos. hmms good and bad. first MAJOR exam in a jc.
haha. quite an experience i must say. retain? promoted? dont quite know actually.
but from what i know, its much more the former rather than the latter.

disappointed? absolutely. filled with abysmal remorse that i didnt start work earlier, didnt go for tutorials/lectures. heyy come to think of it i didnt go to school much! haha. and noo, i dont need your 'i-told-you-so' or your sympathies. at least i have come to terms with how badly i did, have you? all this despondency about promos can be attributed to one thing; lack of preparation. yes i worked hard, but can you cram 9 months worth of knowledge into a week? you can? well good for you then but i cant and i suppose its a wake up call.

the only bright side to all this gloom is the fact that this is not my a levels. if it is, screwed la. haha! so yes, i'll make next year count, whether as a year 1 or 2. its not the end you know, it isnt as bad as you make it out to be. it will be better, trust me. [whoaa since when did ms cynic get all optimistic??]

you fall down just pick yourself up again, keep your head held high and walk away, unscathed.

BUT

and you left me alone high and dry, extend your hand i reached out to hold it just to have you snap it back at the last possible moment and then now what? i look around and i dont know them anymore i dont know my loved ones anymore do they know me. we're dancing laughing gaily behind fixed perpetrators masks made out of a thousand and one lies and deceit. hiding sorrows behind smiles painting love over hate.

so tell me,
when you look at me, do you still know me? the person i was waaaay back then and the person i am now.
and then tell me,
do you love me, or do you hate me?

bye now world.

ps: you missed my incoherent nonsensical ramblings didnt you?? aiya dont lie, i know you did!
ponder ponder.. hah!!