doubtfulness and uncertainty. everyone seems to be plagued by this disease nowadays isnt it? im not spared either.

limped home. took a hot shower trying to soothe the tired out of my aching limbs. can the water wash my troubles away too, take with it all the tribulations of being an 18 year old though im stronger than you think sometimes, just sometimes, its too much for me to bear. and the water cascading down bearing the load of a troubled teen goes swirling swirling down the drainhole, out of sight.

okay, i need to get my life back on track. am at a loss as to where to start. im searching for an easy way out but in life, there isnt any. maybe there is, but its cowardly and im not a coward, not really. so i'll do this the hard way. i'll pick up from where i left off, learn new things along the way, make mistakes which will cost me now but benefit me later, get into disagreements and whatnots, meet interesting ppl along the way, the works =). its a long and tedious journey, but i'll get there somehow. and i wanna make it on my own.

for now, im at peace with the world.