heads up ppl.

i dont cave in easily but the nuances of complacency and perpetual ignorance i see in my peers is seriously testing me.

its taking a herculean effort on my part to not just abandon everybody and everything, because i dont consider friendships and relationships build over time to be ephemeral. but alot of you are taking for granted this said 'vulnerability' of mine and dammit, you're skating on very thin ice.

do not ever again expect me to plan an outing of whatever nature by myself. meaning i hafta msg evryone about it and replies like 'oh if ****** isnt going im not going either' and 'the sun too hot la i dowana get dark' and 'you msg la, i can only msg one person, waste money msg the rest' is a total turn off and you think my dad works at MINT huh? cooperate you dimwits. when i chose to distance myself away just for closure's sake you think im trying to be all anti social and whatnots to get attention. irony irony. these superficial social pretences that ppl nowadays have such an affinity with is wearing me out.

and if you're asking me out just bcos boyfriend is working today or boyfriend has blah practices today or boyfriend has to go home so he can sit under his mummy's armpits and boyfriend has no time for you then i beseech of you, dont fucking bother. cos when darling boyfriend dumps you and suddenly you think we can be the bestest of friends again and go out all the time cos you have no more boyfriend to gushfawnyak non stop over then my friend you're seriously fucking deluded. dont waste my time, i have better more worthwhile things to attend to. if eva in this lifetime i get a bf [haha!] please god, help me keep these people as a constant reminder in my head cos i dont eva wanna be like them.

all the outings before and the oncoming A01 class outing, S33 class bbq, supposed outings with girls from sec and current school and whatever. i miss you guys and thats why i'd jump at the idea of us having a gathering from going to the beach, or a crazy day at town or just slacking somewhere, but all these hesitancy, ho hum moments and taking things for granted is just fucking testing my patience.

so anyone who im suppose to go out with this hols, tag or msg me if you can make it [or if you have the balls to do so] and those who really cant make it and have already told me [at least you had the decency to,thanks and i understand]

but to those who cant make it because 5 cents is really too much money to msg and go 'hey i cant make it cos blahblahblah' or if the sun's too hot, mummy said must stay home and mug, going out to see your boyfriend everyday of the week cos you're oh so in love, you dont know how to get to that place, or you're only going cos your bestest best best friend is going then darlings, jolly well fuck off.

if you're offended by the above, then whateva i mentioned is prolly true.
and if you feel slightly remorseful then alhamdulilah, good for ya. but if you're just plain pissed? then kao punyer pasal la eh. haha

gee, this entry has bitch stamped all over it. now, why do i not care? =)