i asked the only person i thought could help me but now i doubt she can, not anymore.
so i surrender, i give up.
this knot is too hard for me to untie, im not even asking time to untie it, im just letting it be.

-you know sometimes you wish you had some incurable terminal disease at its final stages and you just found out there's so little time left and everybody found out and suddenly they're all so nice to you, no more discriminating, name calling, putting me down, tactless humorless jokes that makes you feel as if you've taken a direct hit to the heart instead of its intended purpose of making you laugh but hey you laugh anyway just to cover the hurt, insensitive sugar-coated bitchy remarks , cold shoulders, and pretentiously trustworthy schemingly vengeful family and friends whom you'd love to kill and would actually love to kill you as well.
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and then you realise how you're luckier than other ppl who actually are suffering and thus you shut da hell up.

ohh im having one of those iscrewedupmyclassrelaysandthenilostmywalletforthe635timebecauseimanungratefulimbecileofachildwhothinksthatmyfamilyismadeupmoney day. so this explains why you should totally ignore this entire entry.

the next person who asks me why i dont have a bf i'll fucking laugh in your face and then i'll slap you.

solatsolatsolat.