Saturday, January 13, 2007
yesterday and the day before was truly unprecedented.. an educational nightmare. 24 reading logs and a bloody adamant gp department is a lethal combo im tellin ya. the harrowing ordeal is over and done with.. thank god. and thank YOU fatin! for the company and the help (:
hmm. sometimes its hard to express yourself, to get a certain point across only to face the inevitable- the other party misunderstands your intentions.. even though it has been proven that you are blessed (and i use this word loosely here) with the gift of the gab. and it further complicates things when that said person is your significant other. how do you tell him at this juncture, you're a little lost on things and perspectives without hurting his feelings? that you feel this way not because you feel lesser and lesser for him as you'd initially feared, but because what you have becomes more and more tangible.
i speak very little of whats in my mind and heart to khai and that infuriates him at times, haha yes i can tell la deyy. but its no use bottling everything up only to have an outburst once in awhile that scares the living daylights out of loved ones. but sometimes no matter how hard you try to upkeep this transparency policy with your other half.. the words just dont come through. and thats when you do the unthinkable like ranting out in chinese because you're pretty certain he wont get you but hey at least you said your piece right? doesnt matter if its in a language that he doesnt get hahaha.
aah.. i've alot more to say but that's for his ears only. wouldnt be of any interest to you anyway, just boring ol' coupley talk. me and khai.. we dont get mushy, we get emo. haha! which is therapy for the relationship really. to just take a step back and let things chill for a moment.. with the comforting knowledge that we can move on together after that, stronger than ever. its these little respites that we have that makes me appreciate the relationship and his presence even more. and to once again thank the almighty theres someone out there who can stand my volatile personality. have faith right? righto :).
btw, am seeing an increasing rise in the number of road accidents involving motorcycles of late. or maybe it has been like that all the time.. im just oblivious to it all. aiyaii...
hungry. stomach's GROWLING. ahha damn.