most of the time i feel like i dont know who you are anymore. i feel this need to break away from you, be as far & detached from you as possible. but then the moments when we are together, just the two of us, takes my breath away & im reminded of that person i fell in love with. but at the same time it scares me because i know how easily you can break me. im completely vulnerable around you & i dont like that. i dont like feeling vulnerable, nobody does. i keep faltering & i keep letting you back in my life when honestly? you have no right to be here after all the things you've said and done. why am i so stupid to still stick around when you obviously dont think its worth it anymore. and no, there's no such thing as being too young. if you love someone, you love someone.. simple as that. this equilibrium you keep speaking of? i dont think we're anywhere remotely close to finding it. we're just deluding ourselves when we say we can be friends, because obviously we cant. i feel that if i stick around any longer, i'll get hurt again. and if you still care for me in the slightest bit, then please dont put me through that all over again.

i think the reason why i keep failing to say all these to you in person is because it sounds so.. cheesy. haha i swear i keep telling myself that next time i see you, i'll say whatever's in my heart but im kental & im just happy and content to be around you that these words dont seem to matter at that point of time. i hope you understand.
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